I miss you every day more and more. How I wish you can remember all of our great memories. How I wish you can remember what you ate for lunch. I get choked up every time I’m next to you. Every time you can’t get up. Every time you can’t eat a real meal and you have to eat jello for dinner. Every day is a blessing & everyday I regret every moment I don’t spend with you.
I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy
because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless
and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that.”
Why can’t you wake up & have a raspado with me?
Why can’t you wake up & watch a movie with me?
Why can’t you wake up & dance with me?
Why can’t you wake up & talk to me?
Why can’t we go back in time when you wouldn’t let me go to field trips because you were too scared something would happen to me?
Why can’t you do my hair?
Why can’t you just laugh?
Why can’t you just hug me?
Knowing someone you love will never be conscious or can be gone any day is the worst feeling ever. Trying to be strong for my family is so difficult.
I feel so much pain.
I’m so afraid.